Giving Up Control

Giving up all control can be very difficult. In a sense, control is what causes addicts to harbor resentments and act out of self-will. In my active addiction, I tried to control my old life which got me absolutely nowhere. Making the wrong choices sent me down a vicious cycle into utter oblivion. When chaos erupted, instead of giving up my control to God I tried to fix everything on my own. These poor choices lead me to jails, institutions, and almost death. There are certain situations where I need to have some control on my own like controlling my own behavior, my attitude, and finances. However, when giving up all control to God and remaining in constant contact with Him, things happen in a positive way in my life.  I pray for His knowledge and power to carry out His will.  I have struggled with balancing control in sobriety which has caused my behavior to change in a negative way. However, I’m working on relying on God through emotional healing, group therapy, and Salina’s help to become more aware when I start to control things so I can make immediate changes to do something about it. Today, I’m grateful for being aware that I need to stay prayed up so I can continue to give up all control to my Higher Power. Through God, Sky’s the Limit. I can set attainable goals and know that they’re achievable. I know that I can have the life I was put on this earth for, to help people in recovery and sharing the process of transformation. Give up your control to God and there’s nothing that is impossible.